| bitch pleeeeease |
[17 Feb 2007|03:11pm] |
i got into:
-tulane
-western
2 down, 8 to go.
i'm soooo excited. why is getting into college such an ego boost. tulane would be so crackin.
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[29 Jan 2007|08:35pm] |
i feel awful and depressed. i have to study for physics at some point but i just can't. i keep telling myself that if i just make it through this week, everything will be smooth sailing. but then i remember that crew starts on thursday. and right now that feels like doom just hanging over my head waiting to crush me for 3 and a half months.
do you understand that i'll be the only garfield senior on crew this spring. how fucking lonely is that.
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[01 Jan 2007|09:10pm] |
new years eve=weirdest night of my life. most random awkward group of 09, 08 and 07 at my house but somehow it turned out kind of fun, i guess maybe we bonded over the weirdness of the situation? anyway, hella corona bottles everywhere, hella fireworks, hella shady climbing through windows (eww, let's not think about that part). i wanna fuuuuuuuck you.
annnd now break is over, and going back to school will be rough considering i got maybe 2 hours of fitful sleep last night AND went cross country skiing for like 3 hours today. but actually it was a really satisfying break even though i spent like the whole time at home working, but i actually got really into my college apps and found them kind of soothing in a weird way. and i got basically everything i wanted for christmas, just a bunch of nice little things that are satisfying. oh and hella ca$$$h. and yeah i went to new orleans that was cool, worked out almost every day which was a nice change from the usual these past few months. so excited to not feel fat anymore!
i can't believe it's 2007
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| out here in the fields i fight for my meals |
[20 Dec 2006|07:52pm] |
so because i am LEMMING i followed the general college admissions trend and got deferred from brown. at first i was like FUCK THAT JUST REJECT ME ALREADY but now i am in like a good place because i realized basically all my options are open. and the clark crew coach e-mailed me and was like "yeah, you're an impressive athlete, you could probably be 2 or 3 seat in our varsity, height would not be an issue." i mean clark rowing is mos def shit but still, it's kind of cool to know there's a place for short fatties out there too. not like i remember how to row anymore, i am so out of shape and obese i like want to vomit every time i see myself.
hmm anyway so my final college list, in vague order of preference, is as follows:
-brown
-amherst
-macalester
-tufts
-barnard
-northwestern
-clark
-tulane maybe???
-western
-u of montana (for life)
how do i suddenly have 10 schools? last time i checked it was like 4 and a half. hmmm
and basically my winter break does not exist because i have not done shit on any of those applications. all i have is my common app essay and my recommendations and transcripts and that's about it. plus i have to write this thompson paper and get it out in the mail tomorrow, and i haven't done an ounce of christmas shopping yet. oh god lifffffe
uh i had this really realistic dream in which i did cocaine and i woke up and my heart was beating and i was like sweaty and it was really exciting/scary and now i'm afraid i'm going to like do it accidentally in my sleep or something. and i actually really don't want to
what am i even saying? i ate alligator in new orleans. and also held a baby one in my hands. the circle of life
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| just kick it like tae bo |
[03 Dec 2006|10:52pm] |
oh livejournal, i'll just update cause homework is dead to me.
i'm ready for another snow day already basically. friday was like the worst day of my life, i honestly didn't think i'd make it through.
i hate formal dances because they basically remind me of what a terrible failure i am at being an attractive worthwhile good-at-life person.
i was basically in a good mood for five straight months and all of a sudden on friday i just CRASHED and felt the worst i'd felt since like . . . i don't even know. but maybe having terrible self esteem now will raise my overall self esteem in the long run in like some weird twisted way.
hmm we put up the christmas tree and everything today and it's like my last christmas of childhood.
this was such a clean & sober weekend, basically my first of the whole school year. it made it go by a lot more slowly.
i have hella ca$h money right now.
color me stoked. let's get crucial
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| the power and the money |
[13 Nov 2006|10:30pm] |
money and the power
minute after minute
hour after hour
i'm so cooold especially the fingers on my right hand
wintcond starts tomorrow i'm going to DIE i'm so out of shape
slash i'm really excited to get rid of some of this flab/gain like 80 pounds of muscle
gave my 2 weeks notice at work
but it's sad cause i really like work actually. and not just the money, like the people too.
sooo much on my mind lately. a lot of it really depressing. but a lot of fun and happy things too. i just don't knowww about life. all of a sudden i feel weirdly not ready for high school to end. ha ha. i guess i still have like 7 months left which is a pretty long time. i just . . . i don't know. i feel like i didn't do anything with my life my first 1.5/2 years of high school. like i think back to freshman and sophomore year and whoever i was then seems so different from whoever i am now. i don't really remember what it was like to be me then or what i thought or felt or even did on a daily basis. i guess i've been here longer than i realize.
for the first time in my life i really don't like language arts and am about to get a c in the class actually. if it weren't for ms. strentz's drug stories and certain amazing people i would not be feeling that class at all.
i hope i get into brown
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| a waterfall of sparkles |
[06 Nov 2006|07:53pm] |
i still haven't turned in my senior quote. possibilities:
the world is so full of a number of things, i'm sure we should all be as happy as kings. (robert louis stevenson)
god, i wish you could've been there. (catcher in the rye)
the promised land is a state of mind. (majek fashek)
i'd rather kill the radio and listen to the rain hit. (atmosphere)
i don't know what the world may need but i'm sure as hell that it starts with me. (cracker)
i probably wouldn't include who they were by though cause that's corny. but let me know what you think.
i'm not going to do a funny one because i kind of want my senior quote to represent what's important to me right now/what i think about.
i really like "the promised land is a state of mind," but i'm afraid people would think i was talking about drugs (because it's this reggae song and that's kind of obviously what the song is talking about), but i'm not, i mean a good state of mind in general. but maybe you wouldn't get that impression unless you heard the song.
mmmm atmosphere is crazy amazing.
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| caught a trucker outta philly had a nice long TOKE |
[26 Oct 2006|08:10pm] |
so excited for the weeeeeekend.
weird how school used to be the main thing in my life and now it is just this thing i do on the side and can't wait to get out of the way so i can have hijinks etc.
i submitted the first part of my brown application and don't feel TOO bad about the last part, just have to get my essay in ship shape.
i am lovin this blustery fall weather. i love the word blustery and the kind of weather it describes. so perfect and fleeting
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| senior pics |
[18 Oct 2006|11:05pm] |
my 2 best options at the moment:
but i haven't even looked at the 3 rolls of color yet.
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| starin at the road, pray to god i see headlights |
[15 Oct 2006|10:50pm] |
christ this weekend was RIDICULOUS:
thurs=school, then tutoring, then work, then party, then you know rolling rainier and witnessing a shooting (no joke)
fri=sat studying, work, more studying
sat=up @ 6 to drive to auburn to take the subject tests (which were not actually that bad at all, not even the math), back to seattle, shower and pack in like half an hour, out to mercer island to catch a ride up to arlington to the gv youth board retreat, retreat it up at a creepy farm
sun=more retreating, hitting the outlet mall for an hour on the way back, then work, then home
at least i got let out of work 40 minutes early, that was nice. but now i am eschewing homework so coldly that i'm not even opening my planner.
i have wayyyyy too much going on in my life right now and i guess the most reasonable thing for me to drop first is work. but then i would actually have to try to control my spending habits which would suck a fat one.
i'm trying to have some halloween hijinks soon.
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| hey hey hey it's like being stoned |
[08 Oct 2006|11:03pm] |
college apps are the biggest piece of bullshit i have ever had to deal with and they seriously keep making me question the way our whole society/world is set up and they keep making me want to actually just go "off the grid" and find some little island and build a cabin and just chill and think and swim all day every day for the rest of my life.
i keep having sunday night breakdowns when i look at the week looming ahead of me and think about all the stuff i should do/think about but probably won't.
i really like statistics though and language arts but it's too bad that as usual i have to not do homework for my favorite classes because i'm so behind in my other ones already. like this fucking media project which i'm trying to do tonight. i don't think even i can bullshit over 5 pages.
i actually had a really good time at homecoming (the dance mainly) and am trying not to let other people's reprimands spoil that for me. oh god BLAINE.......!
I saw the departed today and leo is so hot as a slumming south boston working class irish gangster. like eminem kind of but with more class cause boston instead of detriot. what is it about like construction workers and stuff?? maybe i shouldn't go to college.
i don't know why i write in here anymore cause no one reads it anymore but i guess it's fun to keep up appearances.
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| meet me in the trap |
[30 Sep 2006|11:28pm] |
my saturday has consisted of:
-packing boxes for 4 hours
-babysitting
-trying to study for the math 2 and getting hella frustrated because i actually can't do any of the problems.
and i am finally beginning to feel completely overwhelmed by all this college shit not to mention production week is this week, and spirit week and homecoming, and work and gv shit and my hair is a mangy mess but i never have time to get it cut. and i always want to do stuff on weekends but i'm starting to get gross dark circles under my eyes that make me look like a sheisty stoner/street person. and i don't think i've gone to bed before 11 a single night this school year.
and we haven't even been in school a month!! oh goddddd. this is going to be a loooong year. but not in a bad way. underneath all my stressin i am still amazingly chill and positive. and if i can make it through the next month and a half and get my shit together and apply to amherst early and if by some miracle i happen to get in, then it all could be over by christmas. and i could have the rest of the year to just kick it.
god that would be so amazing.
pointless entry but that's my life right now in case you were wondering.
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| exciting: |
[18 Sep 2006|08:35pm] |
1. guess who's tutoring me for the math 2 (starts with s, ends with eth bundy)
2. i am basically 96% definitely applying to amherst early decision.
3. this school year is weirdly enjoyable so far even though life is not particularly mind blowing or anything. but i think i figured it out during free write in strentz today (best use of class time ever). basically, it's not so much that amazing things happen to me now, it's that i don't let whether or not amazing things happen define my attitude toward life anymore. if that makes sense.
but this weekend was kind of tight and fun filled even though i was feeling the green dragon on sunday. like, i couldn't speak articulately AT ALL. oh well.
i can't believe it's only september 18th. anything could happen in the next month, not to mention the whole school year. ahhhhh potential/opportunity/unlimited possibilities, my favorite.
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| time to decide |
[13 Sep 2006|10:28pm] |
1. should i apply early decision somewhere? (i think YES)
2. if yes, should i apply early decision to brown, or to amherst?
they are both clearly my top two schools for very similar and very different reasons.
ohhh my god college stuff is beginning to overwhelm me and it's only september. i got a math 2 review book today, hopefully i'll start using it soon. then i was looking at all these college guides and then this book about overstressed teenagers and all of a sudden i had like a mini brain explosion. a big reason for wanting to apply early decision is just to have it DONE with in like december, no more stress for the rest of the year.
but seriously guys. brown or amherst.
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[07 Sep 2006|05:46pm] |
what the fuck i have to take the SAT IIs at Auburn Riverside High School.
should be an advennnnnnture
what is the best method of preparing for the math 2 test cause i looked at some of the questions online and i don't know shit.
school feels utterly unreal and nonexistent
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| lonely and dreaming of the west coast |
[04 Sep 2006|11:49am] |
kanye was soooooooooo fuuuuuuuuucking tiiiiiiiiiight
my brother is playing santa monica on his guitar
i just feel so satisfied with my life right now/ridiculously excited for the future at the same time. oh my goddddd
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| tentative college list |
[11 Aug 2006|05:07pm] |
for sure:
amherst
brown
UW or western
5 (or 4 or 6) of the following:
tufts
barnard
carleton
macalester
colby
northwestern
wesleyan
clark
boston u
ehh that's about to change in like 2 days, but yeah, i felt like gathering opinions, because talking about college is a hella good activity.
summer of excellence continues.
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| don't even give me that |
[23 Jul 2006|04:34pm] |
ewww it was 87 degrees in my house last night. at like midnight. it's like why even take a shower.
not that that would seriously cramp my style. i looooove summer it turns me into such a dirty hippie. i wear the same like 2 pairs of bum shorts every day, and i can't remember the last time i wore a bra or real underwear because i just kind of live in my bathing suit. yesterday i washed my hair in an outdoor shower after swimming in ice cold salt water. oh and i've also smoked like 4 times in the last 2 weeks. how uncharacteristic. oh well now i'm out of money so i might stop for ahwile.
my internship starts tomorrow and blehhhh i really don't want to do it anymore cause i'm lovin my laaaazy lifestyle. and it's not even paid so like what's the point. oh right college.
i guess i'll go jetski now. clean my room another day. peace! remember to drink lots of fluids.
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