End of a Chapter
Everyone has there own set of morals, of what they will, and will not do. Most get there morals from there parents, or what they discover for themselves. But some events happen in your life that you happen to fail one one of your morals. Well this is where things start to get alittle interesting. Approximately four weeks ago, i got drunk for the first time. At that point in time, it was the greatest feeling of my life. But when i shared my experiences with some, they said " way to go Tim!" But there was one that stuck out, Eric Turcovski, who bitched me out for drinking. At that point in time, it just went in one ear and out the other. Three weeks passed before i learned my lesson, and that is what happened yesterday, February 16, Saint Pattys day. Cupcake got enough beer for a small country, and it was interesting seeing some people drunk, i mean it was rather amusing....at the time. But, people arent themselves when drunk. And people piss you off easily, i know this because were screwing with me in a joking manner, and i grabbed a bottle ready to smack someone across the head. Well, its around one o'clock, and there are 18 drunk people at Cupcakes, and we see blue lights flashing outside of his, We all start dashing out the back door, and we start to run. Here, it was Vince Finnochio, playing a practical drunk. But having 18 drunk people now pissed off, he quickly left. At this point i leave because i am disgusted with myself. Am i saying that i am proud of myself, fuck no. Have i learned from what i did, fuck yes. I go to college in the fall, if i fuck up, i can kiss my college career goodbye, and i will see the other end of a spatula for the rest of my pathetic life. The next time i drink is when i am twenty one. I lost my way, i lost track of who Tim Gorman was, i was being someone else. Someone trying to please the crowds, which i have never done in my life, till four weeks ago. Peer pressure is a bitch boys and girls, do NOT let it get to you. Because if those blue lights would have been the cops, i would be grounded for the rest of my natural life.

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Whats this
What is it about this school year that makes everyone crazy. ITs your senior year, and people still manage to be total assholes. I mean i havent been the coolest guy this year, but im working on improving my person. Ive made my share of mistakes, we all have. But i really dont know what to talk about, so this is it for the next decade or so.

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Transcendency
You know, im sure most of you have had one of those days where you have felt like you are one with the universe. Just one of those moments where you can feel and you either become refreshed, or so drained its insane. I mean i woke up this morning and i got smacked in the face. It just didnt go away, even now i still feel something out there. I dont know what, but something. Like im going to meet someone, im not exactly sure what, but something. i was literally going insane till about 6 30. Than i left home to go out and do SOMETHING. I stopped by the meadows to get a quart of rasberry to give to alexis who was recovering and gave her a head hug. Than i traveled to the mall, where i didnt expect to meet anyone, but i came across Justin Seabrooks who i hadent seen in a LONG time, and met up with kaylee Knob, and some other people. We all wandered, then we decided to go to Slinky for some laser action, My team won baby. Lastly we went to sheetz, and just hung out, that is where i wish i knew how to flirt becasue there was a car full of hot women and i didnt know what to say. ( impossible, i know) Than i came home and here i am now.

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Continuing with the Trend
New years- atleast what i can really remember.

Meeting Oliver and becoming good friends, along with Wout and Bob+
Getting my red belt ( one and a half away from black baby)
Going to Ocean city with family+
Getting a job +/-
Getting into a fight with Kelli-
Getting to know what my father is about -
My friend Yoda, and Carl Dunn Dying -----
Football season +
School starting --
Almost getting into fights +/-
Merideth -/+
Junior Prom ++
Band Ceremony ++
Ted Graduating -----
Olivers Party +/-
Getting into College ++++++++++++++++

If people really paid attention, they know where i did my good, and bad this year.

Tim

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Hello
Yes, so i am not dead, i just dont feel like writing in my journal all that often, because whomever i talk to, you know whats going on in my world. But you know, everyone says "Dude, i cant wait till we graduate so i can leave this town and be out of highschool." Think of it like going from America Online 8.0, to 9.0. Its better but you still have to deal with the same old shit. You still have the popular people at your place of employment. You still have the geeks, the jocks, the two faced SOB's that can trick anyone but you see past there facade and want to choke them. ALong with all that, guarenteed you can find the "easy" people at work, someone who is the race car at work. Who goes through four rubbers a night. You never really escape highschool unless you have some high end job, like Feds or CIA. Because everyone is held under the same circumstances, you screw up, your dead. If anyone cares to disagree, go right on ahead, this is america after all. My goal in life, is to have my own little beach house, with my Golden retriever Klaus, my little piece of life. Where i can have my friends, and family over. I will have someway to have all of my assets taken care of, because for all i know, i will escape from the world, and only let my existense be known to friends and family. that is my rant for the night.

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So yea
As many of you have seen, i have been quite the prick lately. I have been angry for one reason, Merideth, And here is my reasoning. YOu know, she could ahve gone to the dance with another man, i wouldent have minded so much if she just told me what she was going to do rather than just shut me out of her life. Thats what got me annoyed, and i think im over that. Now i am just angry with Mr. D how he treats the B band like shit compared to A, you all know why, so dont ask me why. ANd just people in general, it makes me want to take a drill to my head.

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Hey Guys
For the few of you that actually read my entries. Im still alive, but if you truly care about what happens in my life, instead of writing it down for you guys to read. Just come find me, im not really sure how long i will keep this account. I will probably keep it for college to keep you guys informed, other than that, most of my entries will be made on the band account.

Tim

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MY life
At the age of 18, like many, have seen only alittle bit of life. I have seen love, hate addiction, destruction, peace, war, friends, enemies, life and death. The list continues i assure you. And there are three sure things in life i have seen thus far. Friends, Family, dedication. I see these things everyday when i look into my life, but there are also a list of friends, that i will dedicate my time, my heart, and my love to. Lindsey Falbo, Kelli Johnstone, the one and only Eric Turc, Stein, Tarran, Jeremy, Randy, Quinn, Alexis, Marissa, Brad, Mike, Moser, Sami, Zilla, Stratton, D, Merschiltz,Oliver, Wout, Morden, Lawlor, Faretta, Wagner, Rocco, Tinni, Pat, Luke, and there are so many others that i would do anything for, even die for them. But the one thing, i can always look forward to is Teh Mooes. She is always there, no matter what, with a smile on her face. A warm hug, and a loving heart. She brings happiness, like a puppy to a little kid, and chocolate cake to a chubby kid. But she makes me smile when im in a bad mood. she always has a listening ear, and never critizies me. She is one of those sure fire things in the world that if you get your hands on, you never, EVER, want to let go of. Because if you do, you will regret it for the rest of your days. SHe brings this song lyric into my head " would you lay, would you just lay here, would you just lay here with me and forget the world." Because nothing else would matter, i would have the one thing that makes me happy enough that if the world just stopped due to the aliens which control time, i wouldent have any regrets ( except having sex maybe, but anyway). She has shown me a whole new level of something, that i couldent see from Kelli. I still would do anything for kelli, even give her a kidney. But she dosent bring me the same happiness as lindsey " Teh Mooes" falbo gives me.

And that is my sappy, once in about 3 months gooey entry.

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Summer
For those of you whom actually ready my journal, be ready for a entry with some philosophy behind it. Back in elementary school, you summer vacation was a time for you to relax and do nothing. But as you progress into Junior high, depending on what path you take you either have Summer Band camp, or Sport clinics during the summer, which takes up between two to 4 weeks of your summer vacation. Then for those freshmen who go to highschool, if your in band or in sports, Summer gym will become your friend, on top of Band camp and Summer clinics. But not only do you do stuff for school, as you grow your parents discover the different abilities you posses in helping around the house. From mowing the grass, cutting bushes so on and so forth. To the point where your like me who this week to this date, has cleaned out his closet, moved all the furniture out of his room except his bed. And painted the ceiling and the walls in my room. And next week i get to put up a new stone wall around one of the stone garden in front of my house where the statue of The Holy Mary is at this present time. Your summer may be free in the later hours, but you no longer just get to sit around and do nothing. And for band people we are going to have band camp in August before school starts, and it last almost as regular school does. Where has the summer gone, i have no idea really since we only have about a month left, three weeks in my book. And im not going to vent in this entry, that is for another day, when the problem is resolved.

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I was told too
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Life
YOu know, im really happy, for the first time in 11 years of schooling that school is over. Too many people have pissed me off, and i need to get away from the school world. Though i am looking foward to band camp this weeks, fuck summer school. As long as i dont have McGhee, the Drunk Gym Teacher, i will be happy. As long as i can make it out in the class with a decent grade, i will be happy. Thought i havent looked at my grade for the past 2 years, so why should i start caring.
And is there really a need to get a girlfriend in highschool. Yes it would be nice, but why. Yes i would be busy with work, band, clubs, tae kwon do, homework, senior project. Is there really time to throw a women into the works. If i need a friend to talk to ( you know who you are). I will give you a call. And i think i will try to spend some time with friends from school during the summer, something i never really do. I usually like to have my summers to myself and my family. But i do believe im going to throw some friend time in, to spend tome with Lindsey, and Oliver before they go off to there different things this summer. Oliver going back to Germany, and Lindsey touring Euroland with SOA. Well, the only other thing that pisses me off is Brad, you all know why he does, so why should i waste my time talking about it again.
Gorman, out.


Big Dumb Animal

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If only
You know, does anyone really understand. I mean people think that they understand, but they dont understand. Because to understand you need to have common sense, and a majority of people dont have common sense. Like why does Brad think he is indestructable, why is steve merchiltz fat, is John lawlor legally insane, whats your view on exchange students. Is Timmy Laughlin gay, is Tim Karl a communist. So many questions unanswer and so little time.AND FOR ALL OF YOU THAT KNOW ME, THIS ENTRY WILL NOT MAKE ANY SENSE. I MEAN REALLY, MAYBE IM THE ONLY INSANE PERSON HERE, IM NOT SURE. But really, does any of what i just said make sense, my mind is going two hundred different directions, i just tore the hell out of my toe, and im VERY IRRATATED, know why, Bradly Allen Whitfield. The biggest asshole i have had the displeasure to meet. Uneless he strikes me first, im not going to do anything to him. But until then im going to try, try, to behave myself. And if he does swing at me, i will be more than happy to make him wish he hadnt started with me. And why does he hurt marissa, why does he find enjoyment. There both compulsive lyers. and to end my entry, with alittle thing i feel like adding, called smacking head of key board


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Im still alive
For those of you that read my journal, and those of you who wish you could comment but your probably a bastard child so dont bother. I believe parents where right in saying that your teenage years are the hardest ones. You have so much going through your mind, so many people coming in an out of your life, people dying and so on, it does make things interesting. There are times where i cant sleep because there is so much going through my mind. And at time, i sleep like a baby because life seems to be working out. In my opinion, life is like a roller coaster at six flags, you have the times where your going down in life, and then your on top of the world, than there are times where your going around in a circle and spiriling out of control. But i just have to say this since i have kinda lost track with this place. If i had a dollar for everytime a derogatory comment was said about me, everytime i saw a women mistreated by others, and acts of hate against others, i could have my own island with my own house with all the accomadations to make me happy for the rest of my life.

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time started: 9:44 pm
name: Tim
nickname(s): Tim, Timmy, Quagmire, Tony, Annoying
birthday: June 29, 1988
where were you born: Altoona
do you still live there: Yep
zodiac sign: Cancer
height: 6'3
hair color: Dark brown
do you like it: Yep
what does it look like: Long
eye color: Sexy Brown
do you like it: Sure
contacts or glasses: Glasses
shoe size: 13
grade: 11
GPA: 86 to 89
siblings: 2
piercings: 0
favorite
color: Purple
scent: Good looking Man, Candle Sent
show: Family guy
candy: Doris
gum: Orbit
drink: Dr. Pepper
food: Crescent Role chicken with sharp chedder cheese
pizza topping: Chicken
book: Harry Potter
fruit: Banana
vegetable: Green Beens
time of day: Evening
month: July
day of the week: Friday
season: Winter
magazine: Game Spot
font: dont have one
shampoo: Herbal Essense
name: Xavier
number: 2
phrase: giggity, Giggity, Giggity
store: Spencers
accessory: Spinning rims
channel: FX
weekend activity: varies
house color: Brown
animal: Koala
board game: Monopoly
story from childhood: My brother came up with this, when your fire alarm is dying, it makes a chirping sound, and he said it was the evil scare crow coming to peck out my eyes, and i would cover up my whole face.
have you ever
been on a plane: np
been on a train: Yep
been on a bus: Yep
been in a taxi: no
been in a car accident: Yep
burned something: Yep
went out of the country: Yep
broken the law: Yep
lost something valuable: Yep
met a celebrity: no
cried in public: Nope. im not a fairy
had a cavity: Nope. im good like that.
shopped at abercrombie and fitch: Nope
prank called anyone: no
faked sick: Yep
fallen from a tree: no
climbed a tree: no
slept outside: Yep
broken a bone: Nope. you cant break me
choked: Yep
passed out: Yep
been to disney world: Nope
made a model volcano: Nope
the last
phone call: jamin
thing bought: German Tutoring
thing said: "I'll talk to you later."
time you cried: When my god father died
thing you ate: Blueberry skone
shoes you wore: my big narrow boats
future
occupation: A shrink
place to live: Australia
kids: Maybe
car: A tank
what are you doing tomorrow: What ever is thrown my way
best friend: Geishauser
loudest: Me
most foreign: Chris Miller
craziest: ME!!!
calmest: Ryan Bollinger
nicest: Megan
meanest: Steve
the one you have but don't want: Tank
smartest: Nicky Lambert
most hyper: hindinger
weirdest: Dan Lersch
pick one
pepsi-coke: Coke
sprite-7-up: 7 Up
gold-silver: Silver
vanilla-chocolate: Chocolate
flowers-candy: candy
book-magazine: I dunno. It depends.
tv-rdio: TV
half empty-half full: Half full
crayons-markers: markers
sun-moon: moon
hot-cold: Warm
dog-cat: Dog
jeans-shorts: Shorts
waffles-pancakes: pancake
florida-cali: I doesn't matter
first thing that comes to mind when you hear...
yellow: China
lipstick: Sex
school: Slavery
slippers: old
lawn mower: Me
iceland: ice gnomes
greenland: Ice
harry potter: Snobby british punk
rooster: Farm
bill clinton: "i did not have sex with that women"
whipped cream: Tits
mattress: Sleep
lollypop: Blowjob
love.dont know
panties: Sex
are you
annoying: yes
loud: Yeah
quiet: Sometimes
random: Sometimes
perky: Sometimes
happy: Almost all the time
sad: Rarely
crazy: A little
smart: Kinda
calm: little
what time is it!: PEANUTBUTTER JELLY TIME!!!

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You Are the Challenger
8

You're brave, impulsive, and gutsy - loving challenges.

You act first and think later. And you're not afraid to speak up.

You are confident, so much so that you can be a bit bossy at times.

Whether people like it or not, you always stand up for yourself.

This was a blog that i found in Merschiltz's Live journal. But i have lost some interest in life journal. but some dsay i will make my come back

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You know, its time for a theory
Im sure someone has already has done this but besides the Russians, the mexicans piss me off the most. Most of the come into this country illegaly and take american jobs because they couldent do it back home. They add more people to this country making the gov't more pissed off. The only mexican i want here is Carlos Menicia, because he is actually funny, and cheech, because without cheech there wouldent be a Cheech and Chong christmas song. And they also gave us the good idea for Diablo and Diablo II. But there food isnt all that great, they smell funny, AND THEY TAKE UP TO MUCH ROOM AND TO MUCH WELFARE. They also killed my friends grandfather, which isnt cool by any means. And im not really into this, but i will have other things to bitch aboot later.

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A long couple days
On friday, there was a parade, then afterwords was an unofficial game of band football. It was turning out to be a really good game a band football, but Jared George hit faretta in the hips and dislocated his shoulder. After he had hurt himself, thats when the second thing happened. Steve merschiltz took down dan lersch who was actually making himself usefull, and he broke his colar bone for the 3rd time in i believe 4 yrs. So needless to say that was a interesting time waiting for dans parents to pick him up, just ask Merschiltz, Faretta, Lawlor and who else was there how much of a good time in leu of dan hurting himself.
But besides that school has been ok. I have to to enjoy the works of Socrates and Plato, i dont know why, but i have, and its rather interesting. I have just been tired and i still dont understand why, i also have had a headache for the past month, and ive been acting stranger than usual. And is there really anything to altoona. Besides the 50 percent that arent drug addicts, murderers so on and so forht, is there anything in altoona.
i got nothing, im out.

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Amen
You know, it is only Monday, and i wish that in was friday. Because A, we have off friday and can go to my dads house and play Knights of the Old Republic. And B, saturday is BAND FOOTBALL ANNIHILATION DAY. Mr. Yingling and Mr. Detwiler will be playing on the side of the seniors, so things are going to be interesting. But, i think i have to make it through the week first. Im in the stages of fighting something and it isnt pleasent. I have a headache which acts up at times, and supposibly hershey squirts are to come later along with nausea and sleepiness. SO needless to say, im going ot have an interesting day. And there is Student activites night which should be fun fun, and im actually going this year. Besides that, im actually going to try to make it to tae kwon do this week, since i hardly went at all last month. SO needless to say, after homework is done with, and after practice on wednesday for wind ensemble, it should be a rather simple week. But needless to say, i want it to be done and over with.

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Ending of a Chapter
To you who know me, you know i dont like to hide behind the mistakes i have made. Alot of you know what i am talking about prior to the last two entires that you will find, have been erased. The -we who think your nothing group- showed much displeasure in my entry, and i have come to a conclusion why in there mind, and now in mine, why it had to be erased. They think that i am quote"Egotistacle, and Hubristic"quote. And they emailed me again under the same means they had of contacting me, and requested for the better of everyone who read it, and to them, that it must be erased. And in my mind, i have noticed that i am becoming more of a angered individual than i use to be, for reasons unknown. For the time being i am going to try to fix it in my own means, and if any of you, even the group that showed displeasure, please tell me and i will either edit the entry or erase it in its entirity. Im sorry for the people that i hurt, or insulted. But truthfully, you do have the option not to read my journal at all, or read it and not comment your choice. Keep in mind, if i dont find your comments suitable, such as degrading to me, or beyond the nature of sarcasm or any other sort, i will erase it myself. And if you continue with it even after i have erased your nonsense on more than one occasion, then i will block you in the way that i never have to hear your nonsense again. Your actions will speak so loud, that they will never be heard again.

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A Tack hammer please
Oh man, this is going to be an interesting week. I have a World History, Math, Chemistry, and finishing a English benchmark this week. And the astronomy club has there halloween presentation tuesday and wednesday( all are invited ). And guarenteed im gonna have a but load of homework those two nights. Im gonna be burned out by the end of the weel, with all everything happening. And granted im bonna be a bear a few times this week. I just really want a hug, maybe a vodka martini shaken not stired, and some nice arm candy. Man, i want a baseball bat a good fight. Knock out some knee caps, maybe a few shins. I think im done now, im starting to scare myself and talking to people are getting scared to.

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