GOD, I LOVE HIM!!!

I'm so in love.

And happy.

And in love.

Life is wonderful.

I have to say it: I met a boy and he's amazing. I'm so unbelievably and ridiculously happy. He is brilliant and funny and the sweetest guy I have ever known. He actually LISTENS when I talk to him and has remembered every word. We talk forever and never run out of things to say. Our first date was 13 hours for goodness sakes. There was an instant connection that I have never experienced before; I felt like I'd known him forever. I just can't get over how lucky I am and how wonderful he makes me feel.

Oh, and I'm in grad school. It's overwhelming and amazing.

I also got a puppy. He's the love of my life.

Man, my life is looking up!

I just found out that I got into UF for grad school!!! I really don't think that I could be happier. My life plan is working out. Plus, I have spring break to look forward to. Wow, I'm so elated right now.

So, I'm thinking about not walking for graduation in May. I think it would be a boring pain and the only reason I was going to was for my Dad. I assumed he would want to see me graduate. However, my sister talked to him about it and he said I shouldn't do it on his account and we could just have a party instead. That sounds good to me. I don't think I'll be missing out by not sitting through a 3 hour ceremony with an arena filled with strangers. That's not exactly how I want to celebrate my accomplishment. This way, no one has to drive all the way to Gainesville just to be bored and I can just relax after exams.

I sent out my application for camp and wrote a letter of recommendation for my friend, Shelley. She is going to make an excellent counselor and I can't wait to share CSR with her. I'm so excited about this summer because not only do I have camp, but Whitney's wedding is fast approaching and there will be lots to do for that. I have to plan her bachelorette party and bridal shower. I'm pretty stoked.

So, I have lots to look forward to. I find out about grad school soon, so we'll see if this mood lasts...

I'm getting sick. I just got over a cold a few weeks ago. Now my tonsils are completely swollen and I've had headaches the past 3 days. I think I'm falling apart.

I am completely done applying to grad school. Everything is out of my hands now, which is both terrifying and a relief. We'll see where I end up.

My life is puppies and ice cream right now.

I just applied for graduation. Crazy. It really doesn't seem like I should be a college graduate yet, but if they'll give me the diploma, I'll take it. I'm ready to be finished with school. I don't actually feel like this semester has really started yet, and I'm 2 weeks in. Oh well.

I have applied to UF and UCF for grad school. I want more than anything to be able to stay here, so we'll see. But, if "God" hates me and it doesn't work out, I may be able to move in with my grandma and save money while going to UCF. So, that would be one positive.

I've decided to go back to camp for what will, in all probability, be my final summer. It makes me thrilled to have the opportunity for one more year, but I am devastated to think of it ending. I plan on making the absolute most of it.

As far as the social life goes, there is none. But maybe that will change sometime soon. We'll see.

So, that is my boring life. Hopefully it will get tons more interesting.

P.S. Everyone see Juno. It will change your life.

I made a new friend. Her name is Mikayla and she is awesome.

It's funny how, when you meet new people, you tell them things about your life that you don't think about on a daily basis. Tonight I summarized my love life for her. In doing so, I realized something...it's pathetic so far. I have had absolutely no luck with men. Liars, cheaters, and jerks seem to be drawn to me. I am 21 years old and have not had a single healthy and honest relationship. That's disturbing. I don't know why I attract the scum of the earth, but I'm sick of it. I deserve better. I deserve someone that isn't gay, doesn't have a girlfriend, and doesn't just want to have sex with me. Is that too much to ask? I don't need Prince Charming, but one decent guy should not be so hard to find.

Maybe I'm bitter because practically everyone I know is in a relationship. Maybe I'm hormonal. But where are all these fish I keep hearing about? There are supposed to be plenty of them.