i guess its just now dawned on me that a new year is quickly creeping its way into my life. i should be focusing mostly on CHRISTMAS. for some reason im not stressing over what im getting my boyfriend who pretty much buys himself everything he wants whenever he wants. pssh. haha. ill figure something out...i hope. but ive got my 9 month old princess covered :) i did all her shopping and wrapped up all her goodies about 2 weeks ago. a few days ago i even filled up all 3 of our stockings. HA! ive got too much time on my hands. i realize this. and ive got something pretty nice for my best friend. last year i kind of got her whatever but this year i thought about it. she likes when you think about these things sooo hope she likes what i got. that still leaves me with my parental units and boyfriend. i have ideas now how to do it all without any of them knowing. hrmm...
anyway, back to what i originally was trying to say. i just think about how i hoped for a great 2007 and im not going to lie...parts of it has been a blast. and i guess with all the good you gotta have just a little bad...and i did. nothing TOO dreadful but eh...you win some you lose some. the best was getting a fun, good paying job that i loved and was good at. ha. when you feel like your boss is more of a friend than a boss..life is sweet. the worst was probably getting my heart broken for a dumb reason not at my fault. nothing like feeling like shit for being yourself :[ in the end, i guess i can be myself, regardless, cause i change who i am for no one! but sometimes you gotta make sacrifices for love...in my case it was between a love of what i do for the love of who i love. blah. if its meant to be, i always have a place there for me again and who knows? 2008 isnt anything i anticipate so much but sometimes things catch you by surprise. i hope things do change for me though. im so bored with life right now. if it wasnt for my daughter keeping me on my feet all day and amazing me every second of everyday...well i cant say life would be anything exciting what so ever. i still do get to travel some and ive had a fun time doing so with my boyfriend this year. ive had alot of good times. with life getting better and better i guess i just need to keep up cause when i do have a lazy day..i lose it after a while. HA.
for 08' i should make myself a promise...i guess. ha! we'll see how this goes. regardless! its a promise. that i do something big...not just for my own sake...but for the sake of my mini me :) who i love with my all, for the sake of my family. and also...to never ever EVER make myself so vulnerable as to enable someone to break my heart. if someones willing to let you go for a night out forgetting you...then let yourself go by showing them they can NEVER have you back..and dont ever look back. the worst damage i could do to myself in that situation is to bother seeing what he was doing while we were in our 'break up' period.
anyway, back to what i originally was trying to say. i just think about how i hoped for a great 2007 and im not going to lie...parts of it has been a blast. and i guess with all the good you gotta have just a little bad...and i did. nothing TOO dreadful but eh...you win some you lose some. the best was getting a fun, good paying job that i loved and was good at. ha. when you feel like your boss is more of a friend than a boss..life is sweet. the worst was probably getting my heart broken for a dumb reason not at my fault. nothing like feeling like shit for being yourself :[ in the end, i guess i can be myself, regardless, cause i change who i am for no one! but sometimes you gotta make sacrifices for love...in my case it was between a love of what i do for the love of who i love. blah. if its meant to be, i always have a place there for me again and who knows? 2008 isnt anything i anticipate so much but sometimes things catch you by surprise. i hope things do change for me though. im so bored with life right now. if it wasnt for my daughter keeping me on my feet all day and amazing me every second of everyday...well i cant say life would be anything exciting what so ever. i still do get to travel some and ive had a fun time doing so with my boyfriend this year. ive had alot of good times. with life getting better and better i guess i just need to keep up cause when i do have a lazy day..i lose it after a while. HA.
for 08' i should make myself a promise...i guess. ha! we'll see how this goes. regardless! its a promise. that i do something big...not just for my own sake...but for the sake of my mini me :) who i love with my all, for the sake of my family. and also...to never ever EVER make myself so vulnerable as to enable someone to break my heart. if someones willing to let you go for a night out forgetting you...then let yourself go by showing them they can NEVER have you back..and dont ever look back. the worst damage i could do to myself in that situation is to bother seeing what he was doing while we were in our 'break up' period.
