Relationships...

what are relationships?? i am not talking about like friend, busness and relitive relationships, i am talking singnificant other relationships. they start out amazing and you just feel like you couldnt get anny happier and the fact is you probably cant. things can only get worse when you feel that way..and they do. sometimes this is just a several year prosses...for the few and fourtunate, this isnt a prosses. why? beucase they dont smother each other, they start off the bat with room to breathe. and they dont depend on each other to make eachother happy. beucase the fact is you cant depend on ANYONE to make you happy you have to be happy with yourself and know how to make yourself happy befor some one else can truly make you happy. this what i  need to learn to do..ive always been so blind and feel like nothing else matters. when the fact usually is there are alot of other things in my life that actaully matter more....i cant wait untill the day i meet the guy i dont feel obligated to call everytime i am thinking of doing anything...thats so high school and i am over that. AND, also, i cant wait to meet a guy who seeks pleasure in doing sweet little things for me as much as i would for them..in other words..reciprocation. i am sick of making sacrifices and getting nothing in return but pain. bull feces city. the end.