Yumie's world...

Title: Like Oil and Water we both clash as one. ( Chapter2)
Author: Me<3
Rating: Pg ( R rating in later chapters)
pairing: Kyo x OFC
Disclaimer: Not much i can say. i tried grammering it up and making it pretty xDD as much as i could. I NEED A BETA.

summary: Yumie is an american who moves to japan. she finds work thanks to her neighbor who's sister owns a coffee shop. She soon finds out that they have special guests come in on a daily. Kyo is the vocalist of an up comeing vk band La Sadies, as they were about to make it big their bassist decides to quiet. He soon finds out his girl friend cheats on him. what dose this all mean for Yumie?.. Find out!!!!!

Author quick note: remember... set in La sadie's time pre diru time in later chapters.





Yumie had found a job thanks to the neighbors next door, the wife had a sister who owned a coffee shop. Yumie drove to the shop and got herself situated and interviewed. The sister who owned the shop looked to be in her early forties, just like the neighbor girl.
She had given her name " Izawa Rokuko" she was nice and kind to Yumie for being an american. Yumie soon found out that the shift she worked was the same shift as two other girls worked.
One went by the name of Mari, she was kind and soon clanged to Yumie, While the other one who went by the name of Hatsumomo or Momo for short, she wasn't very nice. She was one the girls people call "Gyaru" these type of girls dyed their hair blond and had fake tans and long fake nails, they were the ideal of being "rich" and "beautiful" but to normal people they were taboo.

Rokuko had put out lists of what needed to be done throughout the day, It had become afternoon and yummy was sitting at a table on her lunch break as a group of four men came in, all had long dyed hair and as soon as they came in Rokuko had put the closed sign on.
Yumie looked to them in curiosity and stood up, she went over to the coffee machine. Momo looked dolled up and extra "cute" today, she flirted with the men as she took their order.
Rokuko stood behind Yumie " these group of men are normal customers of mine, have been since they rented a building for practice" Yumie looked to her "practice?" Rokuko nodded " hai, they are a band called La Sadies" Yumie's eyes grew more curious.

The last man to order his drink was a tad shorter then the rest, he had red dyed hair and looked alittle down maybe even out of it. But Momo didn't let this get her flirt down, it seemed she flirted extra with this one, but he seemed to only ignore it.
Yumie gave him his drink and apologized for Momo " Sorry, she seems..off today" he looked at her and kinda gave her a faint smile and nodded.

The oldest out of the four seemed to notice that Yumie was new " Izawa-sama who is the new worker?" He gave Yumie a nice friendly smile, Rokuko smiled "ah yes, this is Yumie. She moved here from america and she lives right by my sister" then she looked to Yumie " That is Kaoru, Die, Shinya and-" She pointed to the short red head "Kyo" he looked at her, interet in his eyes.

Kyo's P.O.V.
After comeing to the coffee shop Kyo had seen and meet the american. Her japanese was understandable, a little slow but nothing practice couldn't fix. She seemed nice and at home here. Kaoru noticed Kyo stareing at the new worker and elbowed him " She's pretty huh? for an american yea?" Kyo snorted " Kaoru, just because she isn't japanese doesn't make her unattractive, i mean-" " ok ok, i understand" Kaoru chuckled " if your interested why don't you ask her out on a date hm?" Kyo sighed, he still hadn't gotten over misao " maybe some time, right now i still need to heal" Kaoru nodded.

The band had talked about their bassist leaving *Yumie had made a mental note as to what the reason why had never been brought up*. Kaoru sighed " Well, maybe we can put out fliers, as of now..-" he sighed " we are on a hiatus.. with no bass we have no band" Shinya and Die looked down at their drinks, Kyo stared at the table as if he was waiting for it to do something, Rokuko went over to the band "whats wrong boys?" of course she knew what was up. Kaoru sighed as he started to tell her, " hmm.. i could send fliers around" Kaoru smiled " that would be wonderful, im hopping to go scopeing for any players in the next couple of weeks" Rokuko smiled "good!".



Kyo looked back at Yumie as she worked, She was maybe an inch taller then him, which he didn't mind. She had short dark brown hair with light purple streaks *mixed well and pretty he noted* she was a little chubby but he didn't mind. He smiled soft "maybe" Kaoru and Rokuko looked at Kyo "eh?" Kaoru said, Rokuko looked at Kyo and then Yumie " oh! so Kyo takes fancy to Yumie.. Yumie!" Yumie looked up from cleaning "yes?" "come here sweetie?" Yumie nodded and walked over, Kyo blushed seeing Yumie walking to them. "It seems someone here fancies you" Yumie blinked " o-oh?" Rokuko nodded "Kyo" Yumie looked at Kyo, she smiled softly " want my number?" Kyo nodded * I could text her and see if we could take it to a date.. when im ready* Kyo looked up at the girl as she finished writing her number "here" her voice small and melodic, he took it and she blushed a little bowing and went back to work.

After closing the shop when the band had left Yumie had went and grabbed take out from a restaurant she knew stayed open late. When she got home she checked to see her answering machine "You have no new messages" the mechanic women voice called out. But when she went to the fridge there was a sticky note from her neighbor;
Yumie~
Hope my sister put you to work!, I hope to hear how it went! ^O^
Don't be afraid to stop by~
-Make <3

Yumie smiled putting the sticky note back. When Yumie got introduced to Maki and her husband she told them how she had moved from america it had come natural to Maki to want to become Yumie's mother figure. Yumie ate while she got ready for bed, Finding her siamese already sleeping. After putting extra food in the fridge she set her alarm clock and got into bed.

Kyo got home and sighed, the sight of a lonely house made him miserable even more then he felt, He looked at his cell phone and sighed more throwing the phone some where random and leaving it. He went to go check his answering machine " one new message" the mechanic female voice said, he played it; "Hey kyo its kaoru, I just wanted to say that you should really text Yumie, I talked to Rokuko more about her and she seems to be a good girl, but the thing is… apparently she left the states due to a boyfriend… thats all i know.. hope you take action!. see you"
Kyo looked to his machine "Over a boyfriend?" Kyo's brows furrowed as he thought more.

( chapter 3 on its way!!!!)

Title: Like Oil and Water we both clash as one. ( Chapter 1)
Author: Me<3
Rating: Pg ( R rating in later chapters)
pairing: Kyo x OFC
Disclaimer: Not much i can say. i tried grammering it up and making it pretty xDD as much as i could. I NEED A BETA.

summary: Yumie is an american who moves to japan. she finds work thanks to her neighbor who's sister owns a coffee shop. She soon finds out that they have special guests come in on a daily. Kyo is the vocalist of an up comeing vk band La Sadies, as they were about to make it big their bassist decides to quiet. He soon finds out his girl friend cheats on him. what dose this all mean for Yumie?.. Find out!!!!!

Author quick note: remember... set in La sadie's time pre diru time in later chapters.



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Like Oil and Water we both clash as one
chapter 1.


It had been days since Yumie had moved into a new house, a new life style, and even a new language. She had finally lived her after high school dream of moving to japan. "Land of the rising son give me a new change of life!" she laughed at herself as it must of been weird to her neighbors to be on the roof, But this night was special, it was new years eve. In japan it was common to greet the sun of the new year with your new years resolution or promise. Yumie got off her roof and into her apartment to get ready to find a job.

In an area not so far away, people were backstage talking as others were putting guitars and drum pieces away. Nobody paid attention to a short red haired man and a dark fair haired women talking against the walls, whispers and murmurs coming from them. The women started to shed tears as the man gave her a hug and let her go. Kyo sighed as Kaoru and him took street and started to head home, only to stop at a bar at Kyo's request.

As they at the bar and ordered drinks, Kaoru looked at the vocalist. for as long as they knew one another he had learned many quirks and movements that could tell the moods of his dearest bandmates and friends.
"Whats on your mind my dear friend?" Kaoru looked to Kyo who gave an unnoticed pain look to people who didn't know him, but a noticeable to Kaoru. He sighed "Misao broke up with me" Kaoru spat his beer out that he had turned away to drink and then turned to kyo with a saddened look "why?" Kyo took in along sigh,
"She confronted me about cheating on me while i was out, someone close to us" Kaoru looked puzzled "close..to us?" Kyo nodded " Kisaki" Kaoru sat his beer glass down with a bang and started to roll his sleeves up " that bastard! i knew he was up to no good" Kyo sighed more "calm down Kaoru, she told me that Kisaki would be quitting his membership of being our basis tomorrow".
Kaoru sat back down dumbfounded "holy christ.. this sounds as if it was planned" Kyo sighed once again and looked to the window to see that morning was coming. "Maybe" he said softly, Kaoru gave a "Pfft" noise "what a shitty way to make off on a new years.. well"
he raised his beer glass "to a better new years and finding better people!" Kyo raised his glass and clinked them.



[ yea its short. but i didn't want to give to much tonight. chapter 2 soon :) ]

Jealousy is a tiger that tears not only its prey but also its own raging heart”

Title: Jealous is Kyo
Author: Me<3
Rating: Pg *cussing XD omg cover ears*
pairing: *it will make since if you read it as to why its here*
warning: didb't i tell you? CUSSING omg cover your ears!! XD
Disclaimer: i post it here but it was ment for a kyoto but i had to kinda make it a kaoruXtoshiya.. but its all in kyo's lovely POV. so yea.. it all makes since if u read.


Author reminder: *= Kyo's thoughts



*have you ever woken up and thought to yourself your never going to be the person you wanna be or get the things you want, and then you see other people living that dream you have. I've had that done to me all my life, and i hate it.

Yea, i see you with him. In your happy disgusting pink bile of your perfect love nest. Makes me sick down to my core, I don't understand why your so lucky, YOU and I are no different. Were Humans, You and i both have eyes, noses, ears, mouths, The whole damn Scientific make up of a fucking human. Yet, you some how are different enough to live my dream.*

Kyo was walking down past the practice room as he eyed the two lovey dovey characters on the couch. For some months now, Kaoru and Toshiya were together and in love. Kyo had dreamed of being with Toshiya, to finally be happy with someone as sweet,cute and caring as him. But as the dream had been sweet as chocolate it had turned sour as gum drops. Kaoru had got to Toshiya first. Kyo had gotten to mad at himself and So jealous towards Kaoru he had left in a blind fury.


*Do i lay here awake for hours and cut deep in my skin and let my mind play such psychotic games to my heart?, what else do i do. I'm nothing more then waisting away in this jealous bile.*


Kyo chuckled to himself as he cut an english sentience he had herd from some where; "Love is only a hidden game of Russian roulette ", Kyo hissed but laughed more at the pain of every slice into his arm that formed every letter and syllable into his body.

*i look at you both and i hope you have a death to one of you, i cant take your happiness as a blessing. You stole my thunder and now i only have rain. Burn in hell.*

i like to be caired about when im sick, i like to get cards and flowers. i also like staying home =]

Title: Through the river
Author: Me<3
Rating: G
pairing: DiexKaoru
warning: umm... nothing
Disclaimer: This is for Oktober Fest week 1. i hope its good XD.
Prop: http://i43.photobucket.com/albums/e383/fonulyn/n2-txt.png
*I had to use this picture some how in the story, and so i have used this as a setting*

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There they were, Him and his lover. Drafting away on a river as the sun was nice and clear with the sky.
Die and Kaoru had been boating/floating for hours on end, their lovely weekend filled with romanticism. Yesterday Kaoru had surprised Die with flowers and wine. But today it was Die's turn, So he decided to take Kaoru out on a boat trip in the river.

Die smiled softly as he looked over at his lover, He was sleeping, his right hand in the water. Nothing seemed to disrupt the other guitarist and Die was glad.
The water was cool and calm, all they could hear was the birds and the sound of the water, it seemed nothing could get to them but themselves, This made Die smirk as he eyed his lover still sleeping.

Die had scooted over to Kaoru and began to Kiss his neck, This made Kaoru wake up with a snort and moan. Soon cloths had been scattered through out the boat and passionate love making was herd throughout the deck.


The boat kept floating on the water, heading some where nobody knew. Making it clear that it protected the two lovers from any spying eye.

Title: Peace at Last
Author: Me<3
Rating: PG *Suicide
pairing: im keeping this a secret and letting you choose in your mind who he is with
warning: suicide
Disclaimer: role play inspired
summary: to let go of all emotions and to never keep it, that would satisfy every part of my being.



If i could let go that would be nice, to let go of all emotions and to never keep it, that would satisfy every part of my being. To think of you and the fact that we at some point were in love and happy, Makes the pit of my stomach churn with sadness. To think of you with someone else puts tears in my eyes, i cant stand to see an ex-lover happy with someone else.. just the thought now makes me wanna hurl up what is ever in my stomach.

*Good bye cruel world and its memories that i hope to never remember after this day*

I've never felt peace after a break up, i've always been reminded of the hurt and tears of something, so i think it will be good to finally feel nothing, I hate to be told people care because deep down i know nobody cares about anyone but themselves. I can already feel the burning sensation in my chest as i think more onto this, i think its time to say goodbye.



*Toshiya looked down onto the world as he stepped onto the ledge and smiled softly, the smile being the truest form of happiness he had ever felt. 'finally i'll be free' he thought to himself.
He then jumped. The air feeling cold to his warm skin, his hair ruffling from the wind. Soon the concrete was stained violate red.
The last thoughts Toshiya had was how beautiful it must be to see his blood cover something to ugly and how comforting it was to finally feel nothing. he soon fell within the darkness*


~Owarii~


Author Notes: as sad as this story was to make, it kinda with held a peace to me. When i wrote this my role play character had gotten told bad news about an ex-lover. i don't let role play effect my life but it did inspire some writing. hope you enjoyed it~

Title: Rotting from the inside out
Author: Me<3
Rating: PG *Suicide
pairing: KyoxKaoru, hints of KaoruxToshiya
warning: suicide
Disclaimer: has lyrics from; Rotting root, Toguro, 24ko cylinders,
summary: "Did you ever feel that your world could ever collapse before you could ever live?"

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Did you ever feel that your world could ever collapse before you could ever live?, i know i have and i know that it is everyday. I see the way you look at him, All love and attraction to our blue bassist. But when you look at me i see the love we once had rotting from the inside out, Maybe thats why i started to write such cold hearted lyrics.


"Mother

The pieces of my wish all come together now
Let my hostile voice be heard as I live this moment"




When we are on stage so many past written words of our songs come to my mind, As i watch you look at him my heart shudders inside. I think thats why i started to Cut myself in the first place on stage, You all thought it was because for more emotion effect to the songs But in actuality it was so i could show you how you and him made me feel.



"The time will end, The time will change, Me, you and now, Like with the flow of time.
The time will stop, Until the end, Let's say good night with a kiss to a live with no fire"



When the concert is over and all is done i am left within the shadows, i contemplate with myself on weather you will leave me tonight again to go with him.
But as soon as i realize that my thoughts are answered as i see you come to me with nervous eyes and him fallowing behind you.
You tell me that you and Him will be going out to drink and that you will see me when you get home, I give you a cold stare and nod. you know that i know that you and him are not just going to drink.



The crumbling temptation has a smiling face
The blurred night bursts
"Cover scars with scars"
"Darkness, Doubt and Human Nature"



I make it back to "Our" apartment only to be welcomed by nothing, I drag myself to our bathroom and i clean myself off from the sweat and dirtyness of the world.
I then lay silent on the bed only to hear the sound of the never sleeping city. I wonder if you ever loved me in the first place or if our "love" was just turning into ashes because of me.
I wouldn't know, i'm not you. I sit up a bit and sigh. I decide thinking about it only hurts me more, Instead of hiding my emotions i think i'll write in the only obscured way i ever could.

I make my way into the bathroom my wrist bleeding with the scarlet ink i'm going to leave you in, the words from a song. My laughter echos in the bathroom like a mad man creating a death bomb, after writing you my emotions i feel the coldness of death pull at me, I start to smile and shiver. I turn on the bath tub making the water run cold.
I strip down to the bare minimum and get in. I leave you with Hatred, Jealousy, and a taste of my world to you.


My incompetent voice of just living
My long lost dreams turn into foolish bubbles
Disappear


~Owarii~

'I could always tell what you were feeling by your body movements'. Shinya smiled while thinking to himself as he gazed at Toshiya. 'When you were sad, your pace of walking was slower than normal. When you were angry, the world seemed to shake with your stomping. And when you were happy,there was always a skip in your step.'

Shinya smiled seeing Toshiya shop in the mall while he sat on a bench. They were in America as of now. Since they had time to themselves,Shinya thought it would be nice to spoil his lover.
' You thought you could hide your emotions from me, you never knew that I could tell what you were feeling when you looked at me or when you walked.. or simply sleep for that matter. But my love... I can..just from a simple look of your beautiful eyes.. I can tell you..' Shinya remembered of a time where Toshiya had been stressed out over some band issues,he thought Shinya couldn't tell, so he gave him fake smiles and things. But...Shinya knew and he pampered Toshiya one night with a lovely lavender bath and some sweet music...and soon after a body rub that had turned into love making.

Shinya smiled remembering this 'a lover can tell everything about there loved one.. from motions to contacts and body language... there is nothing you can ever hide from me my Toshiya..' Toshiya came out smiling like a little child that had been released into a pet store. There was a slight skip in his step, Shinya noticed and smiled. "What did you buy toshi?" Toshiya smiled and showed him the cloths and accessories.

"I even bought you something.." Toshiya blushed softly as Shinya looked at him surprisingly. "Really?..what?" Toshiya smiled and grabbed out a small book he had seen in the book store; The title read.."A Lovers Instinct of Body Movement". Shinya laughed and smiled looking around the mall before giving Toshiya a kiss that was quick but seemed to last forever, then he whisperd " i love you.." Toshiya smiled and softly responded "I love you too..". Shinya chukeld softly before replying " I know my Toshi I know. I can tell By your body movement." ~Owarii~

i was bord and did a dir en grey cover... hope you like it!@

Title: Why do i feel so bad (( songfic))
Author: agentyuna
Chapter: one shot
Rating: G
Band: Dir en grey
Pairings: DiexShinya
Warnings: None
Disclaimer: They saddly don't belong to me..neather dose this song.. it is by Valintine.. PS.. **= SONG LYRICS
Chapter summary:
Tell me why do I feel so bad?
I want to hurt you deep in your heart.
I feel so bad.
I thought we were in real love.
I feel so bad.
I'm speaking from the inside.
But now I want to fight against it, and so
you can't make me be hurt.




Shinya sighed wakening up, he looked over at his clock it read five in the morning. For some time now shinya had been doing this for awhile, he believed it was his sub continence and his normal continence intertwining in his dreams.. making him think about Die and what had happened a month before... So in routine Shinya sighed and opened his notebook out and flipped a page and started to write his dream out... he found that if he didin't.. he would go insane..

**In my dreams there are some things that I can't describe
I have to speak about
or I would keep this lie.**


After writing it down shinya laid back into bed and was looking up at the ceiling... thinking of how just one month ago Die and him were in love and now.. it felt like that was along ago. Shinya remembered the day he had walked into Die and Toshiya having sex.. they were to into themeless to relies he was there watching them in there deed... So shinya quietly had left.. Wen he had returned an hour later.. Die had been sitting at the kitchen with tears in his eyes.. Shinya had never seen his lover show that kind of week-ness it had always been him to come to die crying not vise versa. So then Die had come out to confess to Shinya.. Shinya had just look at him with eyes as big as a deer... even though he knew..

** When it gets me down oh then I get turned around.

You stabbed me in the back. Is this something you enjoy,
 something you enjoy?**


The day After that had happened.. Kaoru of corse herd word about it and had strictly pulled shinya out of practice to talk to him on how it wasn't his fault and that the best thing to do was to move on. Shinya was still looking at the ceiling... he turned over and saw a picture frame on his night stand, the picture frame of course contained a picture but a picture of him and die. The picture always made shinya smile.. it was a picture of there one month anniversary, They had been at a bar and enjoying themeless. Shinya let out a long sigh... Even if Kaoru told shinya that it wasn't his fault.. why did he always think.. it was.. and why did he feel the way he did?

**Tell me why do I feel so bad?
I want to hurt you deep in your heart.
I feel so bad.
I thought we were in real love.
I feel so bad.
I'm speaking from the inside.
But now I want to fight against it, and so 
you can't make me be hurt.**


Shinya began to have tears run down his face now, " oh why did i have to go and open my feelings to you Andou Daisuke... why!". Shinya and Die had been on a brake , They had been talking wen Shinya told die how much love and compassion and anything else that could make a straight-man puke.. and die had of corse gave him one of his heart melting smiles and held shinya kissing him.. telling him he felt the same and that no matter what happend.. it would always be them against the world... And of course that night.. Die and Him made love.

**Once as I was naive and silly, I thought you told the truth.
Now I know more about you. I will not believe in you,
believe in you.**


After a couple of hours.. Shinya fell asleep, The next morning Shinya got up and ready for practice. Wen he opend the door die was standing there right in front of him... Shinya's cheecks flushed still as his heart pounded. Still everytime Shinya was around Die.. his body still reacted to him.. " hello shinya" Die said smileing Shinya just nodded and looked down " hello die" and then walked away.

**"When you look at me, will I ever be free?"**
~ Owarii~