Take it to your grave

Well. Last month I’ve attended 3 wakes. My uncle, my colleague and one of my close friend’s dad.
It got me thinking.
One thing guaranteed for all humans in this world is death.

Life is kinda just a very long farewell.

If you believe in the afterlife, good for you

Switchfoot - Dare You To Move ft. Oleh Sobchuk of SKAI 🇺🇦

What a beautiful song and collab. Just sad about the ongoing atrocities in eastern Europe. Well, what frustrates me most is there seems to be no country in particular trying to de-escalate the situation. 

US and rest of Europe can supply all the weapons they want to Ukraine for them to fight the war, but is the act of supplying weapons the best solution? Or even, sanctions. Does all these actions help to de-escalate the war? Apparently not, as fighting has not stop since late Feb. 

Alright, so an update on something closer to home. Lately, my family sold off the car, so now we are relying more heavily on public transport to get around now. Not really used to it I must say, taking public transport as a family. Lol. My transport fares for this month, only 2 weeks in, is already higher than past 2 months combined.

But nevertheless, I try to make some good out of it. I decided to be more observant of the people/commuters taking the bus rather than just listening to music.

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Change

Sometimes I do wonder whether an individual knows he/she changed. But then again, as how I always manage things, I will always first look and ask myself, have I instigated the change in that person's behaviour?
Sometimes I do wonder whether an individual knows he/she changed. But then again, as how I always manage things, I will always first look and ask myself, have I instigated the change in that person's behaviour?

Been pretty busy lately, much of my time was actually spent on a potential upcoming venture. There's so much to learn, so much uncertainties as well. Hopefully it'll be a fulfilling experience. 

My life seems to be at a crossroad lately (not like it's my first time encountering one). Each time, I have always preferred and chose the safer route. But lately, this yolo mentality and mindset just found its way to me. I have figured that it is the only way to experience and learn more things in life. 

Sometime this year (though its only in the month of May), I made a point that I should not overthink whatever ideas that may come to my head. It is difficult though, as it is in my innate self to overthink and then deciding not do anything about it at all as it is too 'risky'.

But then, I am over 30 this year and I do not want all these thoughts to limit what I can do or experience. If I am faced with a dead end and need to go back to my starting point, so be it.

I do not want to die boring.

It is always a journey and I am never satisfied.

Bring Me The Horizon - Drown (Live) | Vevo Live Performance


Such a talent bunch of musicians. Got to know them too late :')

Anyway, I tend to feel frustrated easily these few days and idk why.
I feel very strongly towards things when it does not go my way and my mood will be affected. I may not show it expressively, but at the back of my head, I just can't get over it.
Those thoughts would come back and haunt me at night when I am alone in my bedroom watching shows or before I go to sleep.

Guess my expectations for things are greater as I grow older.
The world year this year has been such of a disappointment thus far. Hoping things will get better. Please.

Tears for Fears — Everybody Wants to Rule the World



Always known that such a song existed. Heard it over radio occasionally when I was young while my dad was driving.
But my oh my, I came across this video recently and got to know more about the actual band that performed this song. Such a bittersweet backstory this band has. But glad they are now back and performing together again after 30 years?
The starting riff of this song is so catchy and addictive. Bands of yester years really know how to make timeless music, furthermore, they just sounded so authentic??! The live version is just like how it sounded on records. No autotune; no frills.

How I wish I am able to experience such a live live performance again. I think I may start tearing lol.

You know, the human mind is just so complex sometimes. I can't understand the behaviour of some. It used to affect me to a point where I was willing to compromise and give in. But now, sometimes I feel its just best to leave it hanging. Maybe if I am significant enough, effort will be made to bring things back how it used to be.
Or perhaps the problem might be me? Would doing nothing also be a problem to some?