tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-593250869377604712024-09-04T04:22:31.783-06:00"May the light illumine and protect you. You will do well."Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger38125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-3365200313067474862009-05-11T06:56:00.008-06:002009-05-11T10:06:01.959-06:00

It's not why are my dreams so messed up when I go to sleep, but rather why is my reality so normal when I wake up?It is the start of summer and the beginning to something new. Though finals and the end of the semester has been on my mind for a while now... I've also met someone who has an exceptional reaction with me. Everything just works... I compare it to a combustion engine, but that seems so

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-68077106631333473932009-04-16T09:54:00.008-06:002009-04-16T11:00:33.439-06:00

Again and again this happens... the story is always slightly different, but the actors remain the same... the situation tends to be the same. I guess I'll write it down here, wait for it to happen again, then compare the two.It's already fading but:I saw her... she looked just as I remember her. Beautiful. She missed me, I missed her... we hold each other, kiss, make love... all this happens

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-60474980002747174622009-04-06T09:12:00.005-06:002009-04-06T09:35:03.250-06:00

"You're going to war for 12 hours, shooting weapons at targets, directing kills on enemy combatants... and then you get in the car, and you drive home. Within 20 minutes you are sitting at the dinner table talking to your kids about their homework."I've read some science fiction novels where mankind is pitted against an alien race with superior technology and machines. The protagonist says

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-51966180345359256722009-03-30T19:06:00.004-06:002009-03-30T21:42:18.737-06:00

What do you see me as?Good Qualities:http://kevan.org/johari?name=LiquidWolfBad Qualities:http://kevan.org/nohari?name=LiquidWolfGo on, to all my pesonal friends, give it a go. :)

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-49814735272849894782009-03-24T14:30:00.003-06:002009-03-24T14:39:30.472-06:00

A cute girl texted me at 3 AM and asked if I wanted to go Wall Climbing, but secretly I had already planned to go with some friends...So I said that would be fun and we could meet up at 6. My friends might be there, but that is pretty normal, they wall climb a bit.But... BOY AM I TIRED.Just so worn out i'm wondering if I'll be able to do much. I'm going to go climb, no doubt about it, but I'm

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-35311337322974821272009-03-20T11:25:00.005-06:002009-03-20T12:08:31.623-06:00

Strange...Earlier this morning I was feeling great... then as the day slowly wore on, I noticed time just seemed to slow to a crawl and I felt myself getting... downer... by the minute.Unmotivated, unexcited, un... everything. I tried getting up and moving around, but that didn't help. I tried focusing on one project, then another... but that didn't help.Then I went and read a joke:A famous

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-63674326549790837522009-03-16T07:34:00.002-06:002009-03-16T07:46:59.143-06:00

Capable of limitless compassion and unfathomable cruelty...Spider Bite MiracleIt has been a while since i've seen something like this. Browsing CNN and other news sites I'm beginning to see more articles, videos, and notes about good things, helping others, and life."Live your life... don't spend too long working for a job... chase your dreams"It's good to see things like this. Out of all the bad

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-14504576074005788542009-03-09T07:20:00.013-06:002009-03-09T10:06:15.182-06:00

7:20 and I am down.Some people say it's chemical... waking up and having all the bad or sad things hit you in the morning. It makes the rest of the day look like an uphill climb that is almost daunting...Or you fall, and just let the day get worse till you can get back to sleep.The energy and effort to work out of it just seems so... much. As I sit here thinking about the good things in my life,

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-80368796321786697982009-02-27T10:27:00.005-07:002009-02-27T10:42:51.143-07:00

"I did the right thing, didn’t I? It all worked out in the end." "‘In the end’? Nothing ends, ~~~~~. Nothing ever ends."This is the sum of countless thoughts floating through my head, and then colliding together in a huge blast that levels the field and leaves everything stunned... nearly dead.I owe her.I have to repay all the effort and energy she put into us...Last night, attempting to sleep...

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Pseudo-Scientific Psychopath Detector Glibness/superficial charm = YESEgocentric, exaggerated self-image = YESNeed for stimulation/bored easily = SOMEWHATPathological lying = SOMEWHATConning and manipulativeness = YESLack of remorse or guilt = YESShallow emotions = YESCallousness and lack of empathy = SOMEWHATParasitic lifestyle = SOMEWHATPoor behavioral controls = YESSexual

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-40593207372627362992009-02-17T08:19:00.003-07:002009-02-17T08:23:56.781-07:00

A brief and interesting article.I saw He's just Not that Into You the other night and thought it was great.I recommend it and find this article adds a little bit to it.LinkNow, the interesting part is how easily the roles can be reversed...Good read, and I recommend the movie!

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And I stand in front of her.Don't do it, this is wrong, your not acting like yourself.Each of these words, phrases, looks, whispers...yet I can't stop.What is she, and why can't I listen to everyone else and walk away. The whole world will tell me that what I am doing is wrong, that it will NEVER work.That I'm a fool. I believe in her...I will stand in front of her, taking it all...I can hear you

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-81815324721866488002009-02-08T21:03:00.000-07:002009-02-08T21:27:23.650-07:00

I'm at lincoln-head.Right this second.once you get out of town this seems to be the highest point before it dips back down to Laramie or Cheyenne. It's foggy, and I can barely seen the outline of the monument between the fog and darkness. The lights around the monument create a halo around Lincoln's head.Beautiful.Why am I here? In all honesty I was going to drive to cheyenne... But as I

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-23085332634588836532009-02-01T19:01:00.003-07:002009-02-01T19:07:40.335-07:00

So, something huge happened last week, but I just can not talk about it here. Sometimes it is almost like gossip, or hanging out dirty laundry... and ultimately I just see this more as a... way to analyze my own thoughts more than actually communicate with people.In all honesty, i'm not actually sure how many people read this... but that is why it is done for myself :)No post last week, I kept

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-67130489423576025792009-01-19T22:45:00.003-07:002009-01-19T23:33:58.139-07:00

Where to go from here?I kneeled in front of the mirror... knowing where my heart wanted to be, but trying to understand where I had to go next. It's a scary thing...I'm holding myself at the edge of a cliff.The winds are rushing around me,I'm doing my best not to fall forward,and yet I'm determined to not walk away.Waiting for those hands to reach out and grab mine...I look away whenever I hear

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-53605987168766569142009-01-13T13:20:00.002-07:002009-01-13T13:25:38.191-07:00

RAWR!!!All day i've just wanted to pick a fight... get into an arguement... arm wrestle... something.Something aggressive and strenuous.I don't quite get it, but it is definately messing with my head.So i've been looking at the costs for Half Acre to have SOMEWHERE to go to do something.I'm tossing it around because as a part time student (Free class) I get to only pay 52.50 a semester as opposed

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-62779666602623765042009-01-12T07:34:00.001-07:002009-01-12T09:53:20.094-07:00

I grabbed that vase and I threw it against the living room wall.I kicked over the living room table...I pushed my bookshelf over spilling all my favorite novels...I felt myself yelling... at the world, at my life....I felt tears in my eyes... felt her looking at me...HOW DARE SHE!!!...then I woke up...I walked towards the living room... I reached for that vase......and I saw that it was already

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-5467675097677568982009-01-04T13:24:00.004-07:002009-01-04T21:44:51.857-07:00

I awoke this morning to silence.Being sick and unable to get sleep lately.... I completely missed my morning.My room mate had already left for work and I lay there staring at the ceiling wondering what my day was going to be like.I felt that icy grip of loneliness grip me... I realised with sudden horror that I could wind up spending all my day doing nothing... alone.That feeling begins to grip

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-85050888575777186062008-12-31T00:05:00.006-07:002008-12-31T01:20:35.868-07:00

Holidays:Wonderful time with people I really feel has been my second family for the past few years. I've missed them... so long and I never really quite realized how much they meant to me till they just were not there. Christmas with two families who have just been an absolute joy and treated me like a son.I'll be spending New Year with these families too. Crab and Prime Rib from the sounds of it

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-72214706275068866652008-11-25T15:25:00.007-07:002008-11-25T16:58:22.067-07:00

Link To PictureI don't blog as much as I should... I just don't like it because honestly this is my life and not every damn thing needs to go on the web.I like things a little covered... taking it off later is just so much fun!So there are three sides to me... always have been.Good Side: Eagle Scout who does AID's and sex counseling on campus, generally is a good conversationalist who tries to be

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-62191772843449574002008-07-10T15:14:00.005-06:002008-07-10T16:21:08.892-06:00

Man, I swear... I just seem to have put this off.I'll say i'm just enjoying life so much that I just don't have time to post!Well no... not really.Actually I think this started when I got my new phone: Samsung i760Very nice I think, though Verizon released the Curve... which would have been the Blackberry device I would have gone for.Ah well, technology is ever-changing in the search for

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-58533606466321476442008-06-09T21:16:00.003-06:002008-06-09T21:28:50.709-06:00

Man so long since the last post, I guess it gets harder to update these things when all you want to do when you get home is just play your games.I guess we hit finals after my last post, then once school was over we jumped into summer work right away. Alot of new computers, lifting, moving things around, evacuating business...Then the tornadoes. Pretty active.Lately, i've been doing a summer

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-31305774706405533292008-04-27T14:22:00.015-06:002008-04-27T16:09:11.291-06:00

Por que?Well I remember last night, and things still seem good.Far too much alcohol and I think the straight rum/vodka were what push things too far.Get this: American Vodka.Tasted like crap, but I, being the wonderful soul that I am, decided I should finish it because my friend didn't want it anymore.I do the same with food, if it is not going to get eaten, or getting bad (and it still edible)

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59325086937760471.post-59190190249219621962008-04-23T12:53:00.005-06:002008-04-23T13:39:02.399-06:00

We presented on the first part of: San Manuel Bueno, mártirI brought up the topic that Don Manuel was insecure about his beliefs, that he didn't quite know what to believe, but still pushed on for the sake of the community. That the author, and one of the characters in the story, Angelina, was noticing this about Don Manuel and was feeling for him. The whole town believes him a saint, and his

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This man.This is the man I am trying to understand at the moment. Trying to understand his beliefs and his ideals, in an effort to interpret his work: "No sé por qué piensas tú"He decried the opression of the common man, fought against imperialism, and promoted communism. He was kicked out of cuba (for his writings and voice I believe) and allowed back in after 1959 when Castro took over.I just

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