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[Oct. 2nd, 2012|12:05 am]
Jethro
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This feeling got to stop man. I know i'm not gonna do anything about it yet i'm still have this tiny hope that it will all work out PERFECTLY. Which will obviously not happen. I wish i can tell you what is going on in my head. But I have been having this problem called "expressing". This sickness is really bad. One example was when I was playing this competition last week. When the feeling of winning a point was like "yeah". It used to be a hand raised and a scream "YEAH!!!". But all i did was raise my hand without a single word coming out. It's like it just wouldn't come out i don't understand why. So which means if i have problem doing that. What makes me think that i could even talk to you. The feeling of rejection sucks. "Yes no doubt, we got to learn how to move on." I kept telling myself that but it just wouldn't happen. There's this something which lures me back to you but i just do not know what is it. Sometimes you think you can tell a friend something words still wouldn't come out. It's like you call them, tell them you have a problem but you still couldn't explain or say the whole story. It's like bits and pieces. This is my problem expressing. It sounds like easy yet hard thing to do. |
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