Silly Little Things

re·flec·tion
1. The act of reflecting or the state of being reflected.

My advise: Every morning after you wash up, do 10 funny faces to the person in the mirror to kick start your day! 

I am not expecting something for myself, just expecting that you are having a better time.

bro·ken
10. overcome with grief or disappointment: a broken heart

If I were to meet a genie someday, who is able to granted me a wish or two, these are the following wishes I might choose from: 
1) I wish that I don't have to cry anymore
2) I wish I don't have to feel hurt anymore
3) I wish I have no feelings or to be less bothered and care less in any circumstances

Ever since spring 2 (second semester), I hardly have the time to sleep early and have sufficient rest. The SOP every day is to wake up early every morning, go to school, go home, and complete endless assignments at night. 

The different things that is happening in life makes me emotional at times but getting emotional is a burden for my mind currently. Someone once told me that "In life, no matter what happens, we will just have to tolerate through." Yet again I thought, how can I ever be truly myself when I have to bottle up my emotions to tolerate? I always thought that as long as I'm truthful and honest to myself and to surrounding people, I will be treated fairly. I was wrong definitely, after times and times of getting hurt, feeling pain. Nobody can say that they understand the terrible feeling of being outcast ed, isolated or being forgotten that I felt. & for this time, I felt completely emotionally pain, breaking down..

One day, when I finally start to stop crying, it is the time I have understood the reality of this world and perhaps the solution to myself.

a·lone
1. separate, apart, or isolated from others

Today I sat down in front of my beloved laptop, went to YouTube and created a playlist full of emotional Chinese songs, and blasted them for the entire day. I imagined myself and my life without you, and all I saw was a lost and helpless me. Every thing became so huge suddenly, just accommodating the tiny little me. It was the same scenario I used to had whenever I close my eyes when I was much younger. Recently, I had been reminded much about being alone, both now and in the future. Who really understand that I need to stand strong and be independent to be on my own? But I know I'm not ready for all these that is going to happen, I'm not. There's no second chance in life, no turning back. Neither is there plenty of time to learn and adapt to changes. 

请给我多一点点的勇气！
藏在心里的，
痛痛，痛痛飞吧！